Today was a day of self discovery. I have discovered that ANGER makes me fat! Well, maybe not just anger but, mostly anger with a little bit of frustration sprinkled with a touch self loathing.
On my quest to find my skinny girl again I have begun to watch for triggers. Things that trigger me to eat. I don't just want to eat food but, I want to eat S U G A R!! oooo just the thought of a yummy jelly filled doughnut right now sends me over the edge.
I have had a terrible day and at every low point in my day I panic and begin to look for something loaded full of sugar in my cupboards. Luckily I haven't been shopping in a bit and there was nothing truly treacherous to send me in to a diabetic comma. (No, I'm not diabetic) I did find a box of the kids fruit loops cereal of which, I had a handful and yes, at first it made feel much better but, after a while I just felt terrible for doing it. It wasn't going to make me feel better in the long run, in fact that little handful is going to wreak havoc on my body and settle into a nice cozy place on my thighs...great.
I use to smoke prior to children and I know realize that I have substituted smoking for eating! I would smoke when I was upset or frustrated or drunk LOL which, I don't do anymore either...gosh, I'm starting to not sound so fun.
Have I become the cliche fat ex-smoker? What do I do now that I know this???? How do I stop emotional eating? I don't dare start smoking because that's just utterly disgusting to me now, not to mention the added bonus of cancer and emphysema.What else could I use to substitute emotional eating and smoking? Maybe I'll take up drinking.. Any thoughts? Please share. I'd love to hear your ideas on ways to beat this monster.
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