Something happened today that made me realize how just one moment can change your life forever.
I realized through this one action how much God has given me in the wonderful women I call mom.
I was angered when someone said something very hurtful to my mother. How could someone so close to you say such hurtful things? Her reaction, her feelings just welled up in her eyes and I couldn't help but feel angry and want to just erase what was said and take away her pain.
She with all her wisdom handled it with much more grace than I know than I ever could've.
I began to reflect and remember that God has given her a second chance at life and with it she is truly a changed person and that I should learn from her and love and cherish every minute I have with her even when she can't remember that I already told her something 3 times or she insists that she's right( well most of the time she is) because it doesn't matter. What matters is that I have been given a second chance at a beautiful relationship with her and I want her to know that it doesn't matter what anybody else says about her. She is perfect in God's eyes and in mine.
I love you mom.
You know you're getting old when you can't stand the neighbors because they've got a garage band and you're mad that you're not able to take a Sunday nap!
I remember going to see Sublime play at backyard parties and warehouse parties in high school and loving every minute of it. I'm not sure if it was the music, freezing my butt off while trying to look cute or just being defiant because I wasn't suppose to be there according to my parents.
Now, I enjoy music in a whole different way ie; not outside in freezing cold weather and not when I'm in my own house trying to rest with the kids.
I feel old because in the old days I woulda gone across the street and hung out with "The cool band guys"instead of getting pissed off that they've been practicing day and night for two days!
Oh well, that's why we don't stay 18 forever.
Thank God!
Today was my Christian's birthday. It was a day of reflection for me. Every time one one of my kid's have a birthday it reminds me of all the hard labor and intensity of having them and the moment of bliss when I finally got to hold my precious little baby.
I don't believe what people say about forgetting the pain of having a baby. I remember every agonizing moment but, I also remember the feeling after having them and that feeling far outweighs any physical pain. I would do it all over again times 10 because there is nothing in this world like the gift God has given me with my children.
Having children has changed me as a person. I feel like I have become quite unselfish, more understanding and sympathetic towards people in general because everyone is someone's son or daughter and we are all sons and daughters of the Lord and should be loved as such.
I'm not saying I walk around in bliss everyday because everyday is a test of the things I have learned along the way and no, I don't always pass the test but, I keep trying through the grace of God and pray that I get one more year to celebrate another birthday with my kid's.
